You’ve put me through hell, and hurt me more than anybody in this world is even capable of. You knew what you would do to do me and you just didn’t care. I will never be able to forgive myself for being so gullible and blinded, and the most fucked up part about it? I’ve forgiven you. 

                                    I just wish I could forget. 

It’s like I’m happy for a week, and then I slowly start missing you again… and when that happens, nothing makes me happy and I feel worthless as fuck. The worst part is you know the power you have over me, you just don’t care. You just don’t fucking care. 

It was easier for me to forgive you than it ever will be to forgive myself, when I did very little wrong. It’s time to change that and I need to hate you and love myself, even if it’s the most difficult thing I’ll ever do. Now it’s time to start fresh and let go, because it was needed a long ass time ago. At least now that you’re gone I can breathe again. 

Everything we always wanted is right in front of us now. We could have it all, but you just don’t want it anymore… That’s what hurts the most.